thoughts

wednesday

wow, kinda dusty here. Really damn long time didn't step my mouse's cursor here. I got a lot of task on my hand lately. haha, including fill my time with some of the entertainment. Midterm-fyp-fyp's presentation-party-study week-until now final exam. I'm having final exam now and there are 2 more papers on 13th. After that, will start my internship, at the meantime i have to get my FYP done also. lol. Vision of future's plan. During last time i like to fully use my time with different task or activities, as long as don't let myself senang. But i have no idea since when, i will just let myself blank or day-dreaming stick my ass on the sofa, put my pairs of big fat leg on table and eyes starring to the tv... whole day, as long as keep myself lepak. What a dramatic change, or should i say pathetic? =| However, I kinda enjoy it. It's better than i have those choked-stressful life. My life now not that stressful but sometime kinda suffer with those due-date or running out of time's day. I think that i can't blame anyone but myself, who ask you to be such a heavy bone (lazy). Arg, take a short nap first and i'll have to lay my finger on law's book already.

p.s: Have you sometime feel like, when you desperately want to own it, but you fail; When you actually holding it in you arm, you'll give your best effort to let go of it? hmm, try to appreciate what are you holding now. I always ask myself to do so.

intern

I just find out this poster in swissmiss's page and i going to start my intern soon. Not soon enough but it's coming.

p.s: before that, i got to settle fyp. kinda choke sometime. Beside, gossip girl new season is OUT !!! yay.

rain

Oh my god, the water is freezing!!! Once it splash on my skin, it freeze me out... Today i woke up on 2pm and i have a good sleep, without any strange dream. The rain makes my day. Cool weather and i just lay myself in my cozy bed sheet, watching series. Sometime we just need to rest ourself without doing anything or going out anywhere crowded. Lone time will be a best way to re-strength yourself and i like to have a hot honey waffle too. yum yum~


p.s : thanks ch for the ck euphoria woman&man perfume (sample). It smells good. lol.

New camera

=]

pool

buildings

a part of a crazy sial

Anticipating

September 1st. Monday. Can't wait !!!

random

tadpole

Few days before I asked my brother a silly question,

Me : “Jan, what kind of girl do you like? A pretty, cute or a normal look one?” I guess all the guys sure gave the same answer

Jan : “a pretty girl.”

Me : “do you have any girl you like is your class? What is her name?”

Jan : “no……”

Me : “Then do you like any guy… in your class?”

Jan : “Yes! Chan Yi Xuan lorrrrr” =S

Me : “why you like him?”

Jan : “Because I same class with him since standard one already mar and I asked him homework…”

Me : “like he is your best friend laarrr?” (trying to make sure some issue here =])

Jan : “Yup. My good friend…”

Me : “Okay. Then you know guy can likes guy one? And can be together one?”

Jan : “Yar, I know” (he was watching cartoon that time and I ask so many question)

Me : “Then do you know they can get marry one?”

Jan : “Can meh~~?”

Me : “Can larr. Then you love guy??hahhaa”

Jan : “No laaa…” (Increase his voice frequency)

Jan : “If like that how to have baby~?? Boy cannot born baby laaaa…only girls can...”

Me : “then you know how is baby come from?”

Jan : “I know ah, when you with a girl long long time already then she will have a baby la. Need long long time. Then the girl will get fat, stomach will grow bigger and bigger. After a long long time, baby inside your stomach and grow up then you born baby lo…”

Me : “from where the baby comes out?”

Jan : “from butt la.”

Me : “why long long time already baby is inside? How you put it in?”

Jan : “there is a tadpole like that, purple color one, then it combines with stomach and it stick there then it will grow up and become baby lo.”

Me : “how you know is purple color????”

Jan : “Nehhh, you go and see my text book, is purple color mahhh.”

Me : “then you know where is the baby frog come from??”

Jan : “don’t know. Stomach ahh??”

I didn’t make further explanation after that question because he is busy watching cartoon. However I know how much my brother learn about sex education. At least he knows sperms in term of “tadpole” and its purple color… =| hahahhah. For a kid in standard 4… I have no idea is that level of knowledge pass or not. =] and why the text book put the sperms in purple instead of white color, gave the wrong pictures to the kids… ish.

I didn’

another combination

As shown in the picture, a cake for all the person whose birthday falls on July.
Happy birthday dad, wt and ken. hahah=]

7a.m

respond-sible

I came out with this while I was waiting for my aunt at home to come and go out together. I think of a word. RESPONSIBLE. I suddenly feel that it is a very heavy word. Think about the responsible of our parents to us; think about how the word take effect to your work and everything you did now. We all have the responsible for everything we did. It is not just you made a mistake and “puff” just disappears from that. You have to take responsible of the mistake. See, the word appear again, everyday in our life. I wish I can escape the word.

My friend told me her cell phone had been stolen by her student in school and the student is just 9 years old… primary standard 3. Fortunately she discovers earlier and manages to find it back at the student’s home. It is very hilarious the way she describe to me how the student try to lie but fail and eventually hand over the cell phone himself. However the sad thing is, he just standard 3 and story behind is his parents didn’t stay together with him due to their working condition. His parents throw the responsible of their child to the uncle and the uncle fail to take full responsible to the kid and it end up like that. Who to blame?

I’m wish I’m brave enough to handle every responsible on my shoulder now, to me, to my family or to anyone. I wish my wish can be true.

Here come my responsible, my aunt and her child is here, my responsible is to drive my aunt, the baby and the kids safely to the town. Yes, I did it. OHH and my fyp. It is a very very weighty responsible which i try to do but i wish to escape but i need to do else i can't graduate but i feel want to skip it but actually i can't... argh, just do it... Wuffffff……

where to stand?

Can anyone tell me, how hard would a person felt when they had no ones that can understand or to share s/he sadness moment?
I bet it will be felt like you’re choking, situated at the lowest part of the dark hole, being isolated from the world, pointless in mind, an unidentified hand holding and start squeezing your heart… felt like cry but no tears in eyes; It would be more suffer if the person who closest to you, did the same way as the outsider do. Everything sounds worthless. I hope I didn’t make that kind of mistake.

Place yourselves in others’ stand. I always told myself but I always fail to do it. If you think you are angry because his/her attitude is bad, and plan to scold s/he kuat kuat sekali. Pause it. At least have a word with her in a proper way and give him/her a chance to speak for him/herself. But if s/he didn’t feel sorry for what s/he did, sorry la, you really deserve my admonishment.

Try to understand why s/he acts like this way, why s/he doing that, what the hell is going wrong out there. See what s/he sees and hear what s/he hears. May be we’ll have another option to choose what we suppose to do next before we misbehavior or misunderstand peoples.

p.s. Do we have the chance to clam ourselves while our blood is boiling? I doubt that. However, try, at least. Bertimbang rasa abit. Where you stand decide what person you are.

the cube job

chew hean ginn, your master piece. you're not too old actually. =]

strong

I received a terrible text message from my friend today. The content makes my heart stop pumping. I do hope I interpret the texts wrongly but it's true. I don't know what should I say or anything i can do about it to my friend, I just hope she is fine and be tough. The only things I can give is my support and my hug. Cruel reality always ruined us and I hope we all can survive in it, face it with bravery. I know it's hard and its easy to say than you actually do it; but for the matter of fact, that is what we have to do. Sometime, I really so hate the world keeps spinning, it brings the best moment in our life and also took away the most important things in our life, simultaneously. Oh god, deal with that......

I love you, dev.

Patrick and Spongebob

When I'm not paying attention in class. =D

02-07-08

A combination

It is like a combination of wishing list.
Happy mother and father's day.
Happy birthday to chewli
Happy new sem.
Happy FYP ( sarcastic tone )
Happy shit. =|

leopard can't change its spot

I know everyone have their own personal hobby and it is totally depends on one’s favorite. However, everything has its merit and demerit. If you have bad hobbies, I’m giving you the best advice, quit it. I know no one can change the world in ‘eh’ day, pyramid not built up easily. Take it off slowly, at least quit it step by step. Why you know it is harmful and you still keep doing this? I don’t understand. Is it fun? Or is somebody forcing you? If it is, then avoid it; get rid of those stinky peers. Stand still for you will, self- controlling, do it for your love one. Sometime, someone is so just not good in taking care of themselves. IF, you are addicted to it, well, leopard can’t change its spot. I know how it feels like when you addict to something… or someone. You will try to spend most of you seconds of it, if it is not on your hand on the next moment; you like ants get inside the pants, bunch of ants! Haha =S (That is why drug addict had so many antzzz inside their pants) I’ll be so disappoint with that. But I guess you will not be that serious. I trust you. You’ll know how to control yourselves. You will. ;)

P/s: I gonna miss gg very much. Desperately expecting the next season of gossip girl and please tell me Dan and Serena is belong to be together; and from the first episode of gossip girl I know Chuck and Blair is a pair, I believe they will be. May be it is not everyone’s type series but it is worth to give a watch for it. You’ll find it interesting. =] At least you gain some New-Yorker-wearing-fashion-style’s sense although most of their style so not suitable in Malaysia and if you do wear like them, you’ll hot till die; and those who starring inside is so well-looking. Omg omg. Oh, season2, please come out fast. Faster. =]

you'll know how cute is patrick star

The Patrick star that me and pink used to camwhore with is belong to kelly. She gonna keep patrick grounded in a plastic back for a year and she reject my offer to help her take good care of him. lagak lor. Alright, pink, kelly, jason going to leave us soon (busy packing up now i guess, sorry ya, cant help you guys). I mean they're going to work and leave mmu soon. =] It is may be a little bit sad... okay, may be more than that. I'm just that kind of easy emo-person when dealing with leaving seperate stuff. I gonna miss you guys very much. Remember what i yell to each one of you before i leave the house. " I love you so so much" except kelly coz she went out with boy boy already. Kelly, gonna miss you much much. 4 year under the same roof and sharing the good and bad memories, remember their birthday without saving it inside my phone's reminder. It's not a easy things. hmm... speachless, word-less. haha =] take care ya.

her-story

Pink found her (duck shit color)bag which she used it during alpha year; Kelly found her little bulu bulu bag which she used to take out for shopping. Super horrible, we all just scream omg when looking at it. What happen if pink use it for work, as her hand bag or what and kelly reuse that bag again, as shopping bag. Lets try it. Tell me what happen. Do you still keep those bags u used it last time? we do. Fashoin style really do change rapidly and last time student bag is so popular with duck shit color, coz shy also got one with the same style.Omg. And us, from the top of head to the end of your toes, time do leave something on it. When you cleaning up or packing up the things, history just came up. Funny. Hillarious.